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It's all over the news, bad news.
It comes and goes in heavy waves, and
your aunt has cancer.

It seems lately that all you do is lose
yourself, always seeing graves because
it's all over the news. Bad news:

this year is still ongoing. It's true
it feels unstoppable, and by the way
your aunt has cancer—

a snake-noose tightening grooves
into her neck and throat, giving it
its all. Over the news, bad news,

you have coffee and chatter moodily—
because what else can you do when told
your aunt has cancer—

Stare silent at the menus, choose
the easiest meal to stomach, because
it's all over. The news, bad news:
your aunt has cancer.
A modified villanelle.

I've already run out of towels to throw in this year, but the hits just keep coming.
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Given 2017-01-09
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hypermagical Featured By Owner May 3, 2017
I relate to this in a very literal sense.
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onehitpoint Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2017  Student General Artist
;-; this is sad but good ;-;
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:iconikazon:
ikazon Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2017   Writer
Thank you :)
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onehitpoint Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2017  Student General Artist
Np ;-;
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Pereyga Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
"your aunt has cancer"
These repetitions made me feel the inner voice of someone who can't push a certain thought away - it just keeps coming back and you can not escape this reality
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ikazon Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2017   Writer
It's one of those things you can't avoid thinking about, as long as it's something you have to face. Thank you for reading, and commenting :hug:
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CindaRiley Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2017  Student General Artist
I really like the poem. I'm sorry about the news or your aunt. I've had family members die of cancer and it was difficult because you can't really do much about cancer when you're on the little bit poor side. Your poem inspired me to make my own about a death of one of my own family members which was the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with.
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Exillior Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Congratulations on the DD! I am very in the loop, clearly. >_>
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Andorada Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2017
Sad Hug - Updated 
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nightshade-keyblade Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
:iconcomfortplz: My sympathies to you
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cleanmanfromthe Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2017  Hobbyist
sad
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nawkaman Featured By Owner Edited Jan 9, 2017
The repetition really effectively conveys the sort of surreal feeling of helplessness when confronted with this kind of heartbreaking news.

This struck a raw nerve for me; I lost my father quite suddenly to a rare and extremely aggressive type of cancer. I wish I could fave this because it is technically masterful and powerfully and quietly effective, but I wouldn't want to read it every time it comes up in the random favorites on my page. Instead I will just say that this is one of the most sharply written poems I have read in my dozen or so years on this site, and wish you the absolute best in your life.
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AjisainoTsuju Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2017  Professional Writer
I cannot help but cry, last year my aunt died after a long struggle against cancer. The people I thought were going to stay just leaved me behind, stealing university proyects and job opportunities... I tried to kill myself and when I though everything was going to be ok and I had escaped from abuse my new family asked me to do things I wouldnt in the past... I dod it in exchange of a new home and new affective opportunities... Everything came down and I had to escape again. I have to escape again and I'm still having my aunt in my mind and hearth and this is how I'm still feeling every string of my thoat comfirms it.
Thank you, I thought no one could feel the same way.
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LadyLincoln Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Congratulations on your DD, darling one. :heart:
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:iconikazon:
ikazon Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2017   Writer
Thank you :huggle: :heart:
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LadyLincoln Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome, honey. :heart: rvmp by Bad-Blood :backhug: by cindre
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QuixoticApricot Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2017  Professional Writer
I've tried and failed to write a comment twice because of just how incredibly powerful this poem is. Most of my childhood was against the backdrop of my own aunt's battle with cancer, and the eventual "bad news". It is heart-rending and ever-present, and you captured it perfectly.

I'm sorry that you're going through this. 
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ikazon Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2017   Writer
I'm so sorry to hear that. :( It's a hard weight to bear, and there's no way around that, no matter how much one might try to avoid or ignore it. The best we can do is keep moving forward, for better or worse. I hope that you're doing okay. :hug:
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OneWithTheStars Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
So sorry, but I can also relate to this too well from my past couple weeks. :hug:
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:iconikazon:
ikazon Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2017   Writer
I'm sorry to hear that, I hope that things get better for you soon :hug: :heart:
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SingingFlames Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Very emotional and I connected a lot with this. I won't go into details, but I've recently had a similar situation arise. It does seem like the bad news keeps coming up, but the most horrific just keeps circling around, always there. I think the line that most stuck out for me was the "by the way" one. It seems a lot like that. I'll be doing everyday, normal activities, and suddenly it'll occur to me, "Hey, by the way...", and that knowledge just slams into me. Very powerful work. 
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ikazon Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2017   Writer
I'm sorry to hear that, Lisa. It's definitely something that happens in fleeting moments when you don't expect it (and would prefer not to have it happen), but I guess it's important to keep things on the mind sometimes.

I hope that things get better for you in the near future. :huggle: :heart:
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SingingFlames Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you, Trevor. We're kinda in a holding pattern, waiting for news. But the uncertainty can just gnaw at a person, y'know? 

I hope things are better on your end. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself.
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TheWarOfTheRing Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2017  Student Writer
Basically how I felt about 2016. Except the aunt with cancer, I didn't have that. I'm not sure if I should ask, but is the aunt with cancer in this piece your aunt in real life?
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ikazon Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2017   Writer
Yeah, it is. She's still kicking though, so here's hoping for good news coming. :)
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TheWarOfTheRing Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2017  Student Writer
Alright. Best of luck to you and her.
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LostGryphin Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Congrats on the DD.
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ikazon Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2017   Writer
Thank you!
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LeviaDraconia Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2017  Professional General Artist
:deviantart: Congrats on the DD! :heart: :clap: :deviantart:
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ikazon Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2017   Writer
Thanks very much :D
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Iduna-Haya Featured By Owner Edited Jan 9, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist

Congratulations on your Daily Deviation! Wonderful and emotional work :)

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ikazon Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2017   Writer
Thank you!
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pearwood Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
Yeah. Been there. For me it was my dear sister-in-law.

2014-035 Inheritance
Shirlee is dying.
Shirlee is my sister-in-law, and I love her.  
She sent us a letter yesterday, an email actually, but that's how things are done these days.  She isn't circling the drain yet, she says, but she is now on the high end of the exit ramp.  That's how Shirlee is.  A day at a time.  Every day is a gift.  Thank God for Bruce, and for Lydia and Deirdre.  The four of them rank very high on my list of favorite people in the universe.  On Corky's list, too.
Back in 2010 or thereabouts Shirlee was diagnosed with inoperable pancreatic cancer.  It didn't look good; pancreatic cancer never does.  Being the sure-let's-try-it person she is (and a researcher at heart) Shirlee got in with an experimental treatment regimen at the University of Iowa where she worked, and what do you know it worked.  When we saw her for Thanksgiving 2010 she was gaunt with a bad to uncertain prognosis.  By 2011 she was back on
2014-044 ConnectionsShirlee died this morning. The two months she thought she had left turned out to be only a week.
The photo is from November 2012 during her three-year reprieve from the pancreatic cancer that spawned the cancers that finally killed her. A character, yea verily.
Shirlee rallied a bit yesterday evening and was thoroughly herself when Corky and I spoke with her by phone. She and Corky talked first. By time I got on the line she was sounding tired. She told me to take good care of Corky. Keep that relationship strong, she said. She was somber, but not morose. Every day has been a gift these last four years; she was grateful for the time she had been given.
So am I. It was great fun having her take us all over the place when we visited each Thanksgiving in those intervening years. I took lots of pictures. We drove, we walked, she and Corky and I. We laughed. She took us to Dirty John's (more politely known as John's Grocery) to buy good beer in the cavernous beer room.
Last Thanksgiving I d
2014-103 This good earth: Words for ShirleeA couple months ago one of my online friends got me hooked up with prompt-a-day writing project. Some days the prompt is a trigger, other days when I already know what I need to write about it gives me a place to start, a focal point for my thoughts.
On February 3 Shirlee sent out her "not yet circling the drain but definitely on the high end of the exit ramp" note. The writing prompt for the fourth was "Inheritance"; I talked about this marvelous Yashica-D camera she gave me when we were out here in 2010. The day's entry ended with, "Thanks for the camera, Sister."
Then all of a sudden Shirlee died the morning of February 13. The two months she thought she had left turned out to be a week and a half. The prompt for the day was "Connections", which was just right. I wrote about our visit last November, and Bruce's email that morning entitled simply, "She's gone." Yes, connections.
A couple days later Bruce asked me if I would officiate at Shirlee's memorial service. A big ask, I replie
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ikazon Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2016   Writer
I'm sorry to hear that. :hug: It's tough, to say the least, but I suppose that's how life goes. I hope that you're doing alright, now.
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hopeburnsblue Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2016  Professional Writer
Hurt my heart, and I can really relate. Sending love to you.
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Exillior Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Villanelles seem to be the perfect form for mind-thoughts of 2016.
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SRSmith Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2016   Writer
This has been a tough year, and I'm sorry to hear this too.

This is the perfect structure for this, as much as anything is perfect for this kind of news, but this mirrors what the mind does when faced with these things, it steps away in a direction and then circles back to the reality, and when everything outside the reality is hard, it makes it all the more difficult to deal with these personally realities when they percolate up again.

Take good care of you and yours.
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Lugia20711 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
This year has not been a good year. I wounder how many more hits will keep come.
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ginkgografix Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2016
:/ :tighthug:

This year seems like it is a bad one for everyone with all the things that are going on.
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Tanner-55 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2016
I'm very sorry about that. You can make it through all of those hits though. You have support here too. :hug:
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xs-deviant Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:hug:
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neurotype Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
sorry to hear :c

well done piece, rolls the reader right into the mood.
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LadyLincoln Featured By Owner Edited Jul 27, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
I'm sorry, honey. You have all my love. :heart:

Miss you
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